And It Doesn't Help to Know That You're So Far Away

Chicken Cacciatore - An easy recipe for you 

Cooking can be healing because there is a purpose and a start and finish to a dish.  You can perform each of the steps with care and in doing so, it becomes ritualistic.  When it's finished, you can look upon it and decide if it is good.  Then you get to eat it!  

There was so much heartbreak on my trip to Arizona to bury my father recently that it is only now (in June) that I can even begin to think back on any of it.  One of the hardest things is to see people you love at a terrible point in time.  To be your best when so weakened and sad.  I hope that I was able to express to family how much I love them.  Then, coming back to a life where both parents have left this earth, leaves a giant gap.  One I haven't even allowed myself to truly walk around in, until now. I know they are in a better place, I do believe that and so happy they are finally without pain, physically and emotionally.  They both lived incredibly long lives.  But today, I miss them both so much.  I miss the space they filled in my world and their presence cannot be replaced.