Keep it Together. Keep it Together for Ever and Ever

I saw Madonna perform on a video clip where she apparently did something to her behind.  I was shocked and horrified. And then I felt genuinely sad.  I'm not this huge fan, although I have enjoyed her career and music throughout many years of it and always rooted for her.  I admire so many aspects of her talents and bravery.  I am not one of those that feel she needs to act her age or cover up her wrinkly aging parts. But full disclosure, at times when it was no longer interesting to me, I secretly wished she'd just give it a rest.  To be honest, I've been a little concerned about her mental health in recent months.  There seem to be a succession of strange cracks in her public image foundation.   A collection of weird, sloppy, possibly drunken live performances on You Tube.  That clown act she did at her benefit was mixed with a bit of authentic koo koo.  Her benefit, by the way where she raised over 7.5 million dollars for young girls!  An incredible feat.  Her performance though, it bordered uncomfortable for me and her voice was not good. Same with her Prince tribute.  I really hate to say it but also that face!  Her cheeks resembling all those bad cat drag queen ladies who can't afford better surgeons.  And now an exaggerated rear.  She had the cutest tiny ass.

But women need to support other women and not knock them down.  Madonna has earned her high place of honor in pop music history, period.  I can't even imagine what it must be like to live on a public stage and have every move scrutinized for decades.  I couldn't do it.  I know that.  But she did do it, for so long.  She seems to get her tiny tight ass out there grinding for her audience each night and I assume having a great time displaying her art.  I didn't notice her initial surgeries much but now it's all I see when I look at her. I guess I do feel some sort of anger towards her.  Madonna and all the shelebrity's that choose to nip and tuck away their aging. I'm only 4 years younger than Madonna.  I want to see strong women my age that look like me continue doing wonderful things, but as is.  So quickly we went from a few to being hard pressed to find one star who didn't reconstruct all their parts.  Is this what it is now?  And if that's true, why put energy in getting all disappointed.  Maybe it's time to try compassion.  I just admitted I couldn't imagine going through that scrutiny.

But that's just it.  In my selfish mind, now I must imagine and go through getting older alone.  Madonna realized her dreams and success, all the comforts and pampering she wanted.  And yet she awoke one day to figure what she really needed or wanted was larger ass cheeks?  No, no, that's not the answer I was looking for!  P says she's always lived by the sword so why am I so surprised.  Maybe in my crystal ball of hope, Madonna or one of our other strong She-rahs was going to shock us all by aging in place. Still outrageous but in their own skin. And by doing that, showing us a new way of seduction.  In other words if she can't or won't live out her time in her own body as blessed as she's been, then where does that leave me?

As a woman I feel responsibility to the union.  Society needs to progress. Men and women both carry portions of that duty.  We're living longer.  That means the majority of our life would now be with a form that is fast becoming unacceptable, even at 35.  I already feel what it is like to become invisible and irrelevant just because I'm passed my shtupping prime.  I'm not looking to be ogled but never expected to be so ghostly this early on. Women need to join together to remain significant and evident.  We have so much more to give and are capable of much more than starting boners.  

Madge gave an emotional speech at the Billboard Award show as she received Woman of the Year.  And I was moved hearing her story.  I don't doubt her sincerity.  In a tough to swallow pill, I feel she stood there showing us all what we have done to her.  A decorated soldier.  A survivor of many battles.  She was strong but changed profoundly, wounded and battered, hanging on to what is rightly hers.  All her history was everything in her stance, in her chosen clothes, how she spoke and what she said.

But the war Madonna described, was so near to what many of us women have experienced as well.  Her words were timely, and truthful and she sort of looked how I feel up there most days, very vulnerable.  And why I finally felt real compassion for her.  She finally became a person to me.  We do need to watch out for each other, support other women, collaborate and work together, raise each other up.   Raising millions of dollars for young girls is something a strong person does.  Sticking around 30 some odd years in an industry that didn't even survive itself defines strength.  Giving a speech exposing yourself takes courage. I'm going to do her a solid and congratulate her on her award and accomplishments and stop worrying about her.

I think this is going to be a breakthrough year for women.  I feel a quake coming out of necessity.  Maybe Hillary put that much more stress on the fault line.

For dinner a baked Mediterranean delight.  Baked lemon chicken with black olives and roasted chick peas served alongside red quinoa with garlic spinach.  I wasn't expecting it to be so sexy looking.