Saturday, December 6, 2014

Love is LIke a Cloud, Holds a Lot of Rain

I don't know if you are like me in that I have trouble truly appreciating good things when they happen at the moment they are happening.  This was the night before we were to leave on vacation to Key Largo.  That means a lot of things.  We are getting out of the city.  We are on vacation.  We are off of work for several days in a row!  We are going to be in a nice hotel and see pretty clear water and have leisure time.  We are going to have fun!  We are going to eat lots of good food.  And the list goes on.
Pork chops smothered in a light sauce with thyme and lemon, yogurt.  Poached creamy eggs.  It was so delicious and satisfying.  What the heck is wrong with me?  I couldn't relax, I couldn't get happy with the anticipation of pleasurable things happening in the near future.  It all seemed like some farce.  The plane would crash.  9/11 part 2 would occur that morning.  A hurricane would force airport closures.   Every pore of my being just said, this is not really happening.  It's cold outside and ugly and you girl, will not be seeing the sun anytime soon.  And I believed me. That's the shit part.
And so in my inability to accept the forthcoming joy, I also missed out on the perfected cook on these loins the night before.  Some part of my psyche is cock-blocking my blessings and it needs to stop!  And just when I'm finally understanding temperature control on these various cooking methods.  

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