You Better Lose Yourself in the Music, the Moment You Own It, You Better Never Let it Go

I hacked off another large piece of that giant cauliflower head and roasted it with chick peas, a little chili lime cumin blend.  Ground turkey over wilted spinach greens alongside that.

Chick peas are so nutty and they transform after roasting.  I guess everything does.  Fall lets us appreciate the crops in a whole new way.  Whereas having a cold fresh spinach salad would have been great two months ago, now wilting the greens in a bit of warm garlic oil is so much nicer.

The oven warms the house and also fills the air with a super friendly vibe.  Closing the windows also brings a calm, quiet to the place like we don't get in summer living over a subway and on a busy street.

Going forward, outside travel will be less and less pleasant but necessary.  This season is a time to reflect and decide whether you're going to be a big drag all winter or embrace the holidays and seasonal events.  I think it's a decision.  They tell me it is.  But is it really?  Right now I have every intention of enjoying and participating, starting with Halloween.  In the last few years my aim got bent and I suddenly found myself sneering at anything festive.   This year I will use my own psyche as an experiment in human study.  When will it turn?  Will I be able to travel a fixed course and seek out and appreciate the small nuggets of true joy out there and not be blinded by all the muckety muck that comes with the end of year nonsense?  

What have I learned so far?  One thing is to not expect people to change just because it's coming up to Christmas.  That my life will most likely seem stagnant when I compare the year's progress.  Thanksgiving and Christmas no matter what will zap my energy and leave me sad for a family dynamic that doesn't even exist.  Lack of sun is real and I need to fortify my Vitamin D and calcium. 

What can I build upon?  I like sweaters and thick socks, being warm in the house after riding home from work in extreme cold.   I love soups and stews.  I love watching movies and documentaries with a blanket on the couch.  I like making stupid holiday cards and reaching out to people I've neglected all year.  I like making little treat gifts and wrapping them in interesting artistic ways.  

Can a person, in this case, me change with directed objectives?  I'll get back to you.