She Might Need a Lotta Lovin' But She Don't Need You

My intent this year was to rid myself of things that do not like me back.  You have to ask yourself, if it doesn't make you feel good, why is it in your life?  What is it about that cookie or plate of white pasta that I can't resist?  That I would risk getting so sick or befriend a food that would immediately treat me like shit.  Similar to alcoholism, every day is new and I have to remind myself to eat food that makes me feel healthy, that stays friendly the entire trip through my body.  Eat food that doesn't hurt me.

I could easily scarf down fast food burgers and fries without repercussion in the past.  Now the bread gives me horrible headaches and the french fries give me rot gut.

Garlicky baked fries are so good and you won't miss all the oil.  get your garlicky baked fries here  A lettuce burger with avocado, onions and tomatoes makes you forget the warm toasty bun with the grilled crusty edges and the buttery flavor.  Oh man.

And the same with humans.  Likes, clicks of approval, hand clap emojis


and the raining down of 100%'s are so comforting to my pathetic side.  But this is liking to be liked.  Giving to get, no genuine.  In the end though, we need actual human contact. People need physical touch and real feels.  We need folks to like us and be kind to us, not use us.  Genuinely appreciate us for who we are not what we can offer.  We need friends to be just that and not have to beg to hang or be selfish with affections.  Everyone merits that, at least.  But just like food, sometimes people treat you poorly.   And here we are so driven to fill all these empty pails inside of us, that sometimes we allow it.  We sure seem to need a lot of what we think of as love, even if its hard to understand the differences sometimes between the good and bad kind.

One great way to fill your own hole is to walk

walk until your mindset changes

it almost always happens

Similar to dreams, there is nothing like random reality to switch your gears...

...take your mind off of the emptiness

What would 'Ol Dirty Bastard do?

Some people fill their voids with chickens.

The best you can do sometimes is to just try to distract yourself like you would a 4 year old, tire yourself out...

Breakfast with potatoes and bacon is really good at weighting that bucket.

Learn a song on the Ukulele and sing it over and over .