this is a blog about the food in my life. what I eat, what I wanna eat, what I make, what I bake, what I wanna make and bake, ideas and recipes. it's also my thoughts on food or stories behind the meals. The lyric references are from my lifelong love of classic rock and funk and from working a hunnerd years in music retail.
Something snapped at work and I am now able to smile on my nemesis', most days anyway. Instead of toiling inside I leave her and others like her, be, and more sincerely than I have before, treat her nicely, wish her well, don't take any of her shit, but also don't give any back. It's a nice little gift from the universe.
Actually, watching George Harrison deal with McCartney and Lennon in the documentary Get Back sealed the deal in a way. He knew it was time he created songs in a new world of his own creation, not live in someone else's, not that it was bad - in any way, it was simply time. He was given unique gifts as well and felt the drive to get them out into the world. In so many ways, it was incredibly brave of John and George to get their own music out there when connected to such a cash cow, that was the Beatles. Seeing Paul nervous to let them go, even though he held the market share of talent helped me to see everyone holds struggles, even those that aren't as apparent.
Bok Choy and Soy noodles with Mushroom and Chicken
I've allowed myself to live in the world of some bullies at work for more years than I'd like to admit. I didn't know how to move out of it, at times consuming me. I thought it might be about the fight, at first. Then, I tried ignoring their energy, as if they didn't exist but that only proved to make them more real in my head. I found solace in other newcomers to the department, experiencing similar struggles with them. Realizing that it wasn't just me, not personal, but a legitimate matter helped a good deal. Maybe I didn't deserve this basement of a life. All of the sudden, like the bottom dropping out of this spinning absurdity, all my own anger and resentment fell away that I had been carrying around towards them. I don't feel the need to respond at all anymore. I'm not ignoring them intentionally as before, simply allowing them to be stinky, without me, while sending good energy their way because it must be a bummer for them too. And it's made the world of difference. Like I've let myself out of a self made prison.
Another successful trip to the Turkish feeding grounds across the street. This time, it was even more satisfying and the process was as smooth as getting a pack of cigarettes. We don't often get take-out, as cooking is now a form of entertainment, so when we do, it feels extra special and rewarding.
Chicken Adana Kebab lunch combo from Deniz Restaurant
We sat with a weird, long ass flu, right before I was to get boosted. Then wondered whether it was still necessary. If this was Omicron we might actually have better immunity and could wait past spring to get it, when the options may change again. For those of us that are heavily saturated in the public, and who will most likely become sick more often, it's good to consider how to pace some of these shots going into our bodies. There was confusing information about the boosters for folks like me who have been vaccinated but also had the virus twice and long haul. These ongoing symptoms are freaking me out and I try to ignore them but some are impossible. I don't want my body to be stressed out any more than necessary because any little bug seems to throw it into a Frankenstein tizzy. There is still so much we don't know about the virus and the vaccines, what this long haul is and how they all affect each other.
So, I for one want all pertinent information to be available to me. Not whacked out right wing conspiracy nut jobs, no. But yes, from doctors and scientists that feel passionate enough to speak about concerns or corruption that could be influencing bad decisions, and who are not driven by monetary gain or big pharma. All I want to do is listen.
I do not own this video - just sharing
I have been listening to Joe Rogan for years and love what he created, the hours long Podcast to discuss complicated subjects, not always serious, but sometimes. He's introduced me to many cool scientists that have a new way of explaining big concepts that I enjoy like AI, and he also hosted many of my favorite Ufologists. I love all the comedians, since comedy is gold during the pandemic. Rogan himself, is a guy's guy, not a lot there for a gal like me to relate to, but nonetheless, what I find interesting, is what he finds interesting. The general premise of sitting and talking unscripted with a good conversationalist feels like the modern version of my Midwestern winter, paneled basement discussions, way back, talking for hours, getting stoned, maybe bringing out the whiskey late. I loved doing that. It feels new and familiar both. A respectable format to discover truths and bounce off ideas. When Rogan moved to Spotify and became so popular, I'm sure he knew his freedoms would be squashed sooner than later. Even though it was predictable, I wish we could find healthier ways to address our differences.
One of the guys I was introduced to on Joe's podcast is Sam Harris. I disagree with him on some issues but always love hearing why he believes what he does. I also like to hear him paired against others that challenge his opinion to remember what civilized discussion sounds like. Don't you miss that? Harris makes some important points and without hatred or trying to take anyone down here in this video about the current Joe Rogan/ Spotify fiasco.
Pizza slices, especially while sick, are downright medicinal. After soup and vitamins, while gaining strength back from a nasty bug, you need spicy, salty foods to reawaken the system. At no time does pizza fail at soothing the soul. Not Ray's Pizza for our Not Omicron flu.
