Saturday, November 6, 2010

Mother and Child Reunion



My dear sweet momma, little Sid fell down and broke her hip. She had surgery and is now recovering but its uncertain whether she will regain her ability to walk or do simple things. Its been a tough but beautiful past 10 years for LS. She has come back from the bowels of sickness and disease. In her dementia she has given me so many little gifts and pearls of wisdom. Yesterday she was groggy from the drugs and her speech was slurred. I didn't understand much of what she said but at one point she said 'All you can do in this world is keep scratching, scratching and scratching at it - you have to go out and keep lookin' for yourself'. Pretty cool.

I know she is safe. I know nothing bad can happen to her anymore. But it is still a sad time and one that you can't hide from. I've not felt like cooking or celebrating with food lately.

I'll need to travel soon to see her and be very strong. I'm hoping that food will help me during that visit with my dad and also my nieces and brother. I will rely on food to help communicate the caring and love, nurturing and comfort that I feel for them. Its a necessary part of every one's day whether they are the president or a stranger passing on the street. We all have to eat. Someone cooking for you can be very intimate or simply a kind gesture.

Eating here at home lately has felt like more of a task, like showering, cleaning up. It feels wrong to become too festive about anything. I'm worried and I feel my mother slipping away. But LS miraculously came out of a wrong diagnosis of Alzheimer's a few years ago, had a thyroid surgery and was suddenly able to walk again, make sandwiches, joke around and have some quality of life where before she was bedridden and lethargic. She has been full of surprises. So in her honor I will think positively and take each day as it comes.



We had a calm breakfast here of steak and eggs with potatoes and toast. Nothing creative, nothing out of the ordinary but good and satisfying.




This week I made a dozen baked pork chops and just put them in the fridge to serve along side a spinach & tomato salad whenever we needed to eat.

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