Don't Bring Me Down

Sometimes the only way you can go is up.  I've burgered myself all the way to boredom this year but this was interesting.  Pesto over turkey cheeseburger layered over wilted greens and tomato.

I like when things are easy to eat.  When they don't just look good and then you can't figure how to cut into them.  Or you go to take a bite and everything slides away like an avalanche.  So this was all yes in those areas.  Plus putting the pesto on top and having the greens as a base gives this enough substance as to not require additional fanfare.  Thus, dinner is done!

Through This Open World, I'm Bound to Ramble

I love cooking for dozens of reasons.  One is because there is a start and a finish. An end product, an outcome bad or good. I have issues with time as it relates to the continuum so I appreciate the art of cooking and eating a meal.  There is no gray.  It is straightforward.

I live in the moment but I also have all this backed up living to do.  Somehow, somewhere I fostered the ability to save certain situations in tiny time capsules to later pop open and address. Maybe I wasn't ready or was distracted at the time.  I read that your mind truly does have the capability to preserve memories in this way.  So occasionally I choose to sacrifice moments in the day to let one or two into the ole noggin.  A virtual Pintrest board for feel ya later's.  Miraculously it all comes back with smells and specific details, and emotions.  Mostly these are hard. After all, you don't not live a situation because it's easy.  Maybe you just couldn't cope at the time.  But no matter how great of an escape artist, one must still eventually reckon with whatever it is they lived through.

I don't always get the shrimp right but when I do, I have to brag about it.  That slight crispy outer crust with a big burst of juicy shrimpiness when you bite. Not hard but tender.  And then this amazing pesto sauce over zucchini veggetti was all Yes!

I don't want to miss out on any of this world's breath, even the hard parts.  I also don't want to be limited by the conventional means of understanding time or love or reality.  We have way too many restrictions on ourselves.  Why put them on our minds and hearts as well?

For me, time doesn't have a past or a future.  Reality is an illusion and love is infinite.

But damned if I won't find a way to be miserable half my days.

Whenever I Call You Friend

I love how someone you don't know in some far off distant land can come up with a simple new recipe and then you try it and its just what you were craving.  So magical.

That is what happened with this recipe I found on a site for easy summer quick meals.  Cannellini beans, red onion (I had sweet), green onion, avocado and lemon juice.  The usual s&p, drizzle of oil ending.

I am pretty sure that I believe that all the people in our lives come to us by some inner will of our own.  I don't even exclude the assholes.  My studies on this are not yet complete.  I used to think God sent them all.  But then I sort of nixed that theory because I don't think He micromanages the game like that. I believe He creates the original scene and it is then our responsibility to solve the puzzle He's given us.  I believe we even pick our mothers and when and where we come into the picture.  Some higher part of our consciousness owns abilities to imagine people, send for them, and then we must also recognize them when they get here.  At work for instance maybe all of us have met someone new and got an instant jolt that this person was going to be important in some way, bad or good.  Occasionally it's a surprise. You don't feel anything and later they become your nemesis or your best friend. In those situations I believe you are the one that has entered into their radar.  You are the one that has been summoned.
My evolution happens painstakingly slow with tendencies to regress.  I'm just this past year beginning to see the relevance of humans as they relate to my day to day life.  I feel a strong pull to finally get to know those specific persons that I seemed to have conjured to my party.  It is finally time to cherish them now. It may be too late in some cases but I will be diligent in my persistenceness because I feel it is worth the effort.
In the same way this year I have come to appreciate recipes from other simple cooks.  They provide inspiration, ideas, and stimulate my culinary growth.